See, this leads back to a couple of posts ago--we can't pursuit every goal we have at once. There are only so many resources for these things to go around.
Everytime, though, I think back to Monday night I can see these possibilities to maybe make into academia afterall. I was a bit of a star that night--it made me feel like I need to get back there someday. In the meantime, I'll do my best at my job and do some relative coasting while I devote some resources to other pursuits to get myself into a happy balance. Just because it's not today's top priority does not mean it's not in the queue.