I am very much a pro-breastfeeding kind of person. (I am by no means a militant breastfeeding advocate, but I do encourage anyone who can to give it a try. But, at the end of the day it is important to me that I breastfeed my own kids and I am not judgey about people who don't. Life is too complicated for that). I espouse the notion of baby led weaning (even though at times I was sure x was going to be the absolute drop dead last day for nursing, I always fell back on this belief). It's been extra hard to follow this principal once I found out I was pregnant while in the full swing of my nursing relationship with peanut.
I'm not going to lie. It has been very physically uncomfortable and occasionally downright painful since I've been pregnant with #2. However, since we weaned peanut at night and are down to two to three nursing sessions max every day it has been much more tolerable and at times pleasant again. I feel bad sometimes, though. Like maybe we are short-changing peanut. If I wasn't pregnant I think we could still have our afternoon non-bedtime nursing\cuddle session on the recliner or the wake-up and snuggle session like we used to. But, I really needed to pare down the sessions for my own sanity. So, we're down to nursing before naps (when I'm home) and before bedtime. The thing that really helps me keep it up is that he doesn't NEED to nurse. It's always optional. He will go to bed without it if he's with mrp or a grandparent or babysitter. I have my full freedom back, but we still nurse. So, it's a win-win really.
I'm not sure what's going to happen when #2 arrives. I am not afraid of becoming the crazy hippy lady who tandem nurses anymore, but I am open to the idea that it may or may not be unworkable. #2 will certainly have top priority so we'll just have to see if peanut can handle sharing. If not, so be it. We will have had a nice long nursing relationship by then and I will hopefully not feel too guilty about it ending before it might otherwise have ended. (Oh, excuse me. Peanut would like to add the following: "yeah, if it weren't for that pesky sister coming along and spoiling everything!")
Heh. It's easy to think that the arrival of #2 will be a a negative in peanut's mind, but I really believe that it will bring out the best in him and he will be as loving a big brother as any toddler can be, even if he has to share or give up his boobs for it!
Anyway, sorry to all my non-parent readers out there. We'll be back to our regularly scheduled non-boob-related topics next post :)