At the same time, the weight gain this pregnancy is really bugging me. I've already gained 30 lbs from my pre-taper weight (I don't weigh myself during marathon taper or the month after). I'm sure I gained some pounds in the week after the marathon when I didn't run--happy pounds as a friend calls them. But still. I am not quite 26 weeks pregnant and up at least a pound a week. My body did the exact same thing last pregnancy, but I think because pregnancy was such a novel and interesting concept I didn't care so much. This time, I am caring and it is worrying me. It was one thing to need to lose 30 lbs over the winter after I had peanut, but it's a whole 'nother ball of wax to have to lose that in the summer. I can't hide in sweaters. It'll be racing season. Sigh.
I talked to my midwife about it. She said since I gained a lot and then lost it so easily last time (I was back to pre-pregnancy weight by 5-6 months post-partum) I really shouldn't worry about it. She said some women just gain a lot. It's just what they do. I talked about it with another pregnant athlete friend and her doctor said a lot of female athletes gain more than the recommended 25-35 lbs because we are so lean to begin with. I swear it feels like my metabolism has just shut down. I am not eating the thousands of extra calories I would need to pile on these pounds. I started tracking what I eat and I eat at the high end of the recommended range, but that range does not even take exercise or breastfeeding into the mix. And I'm not eating things like bags of Doritos or anything like that. I am cognizant of my lean protein intake, eat almost all whole grains and lots of fruits and veggies.
Sure, this doesn't happen to every athlete (damn you lean pregnant athlete freaks!) But at least anecdotally it seems fairly common for us normally lean active ladies. Before I tracked what I ate I was feeling a lot of guilt and worry about being a pig. I take pride in my fit body and it is very difficult to see it pack on the pounds even for the best cause in the world. I take responsibility for my fitness and I guess I just assumed it was my "fault" that I was gaining so much weight. But, by talking to my midwife and tracking what I've been eating I see I'm not a gluttonous pig or anything. I am eating what I need to eat to be healthy and this is what my body's doing with it. And if that means I get another kid as great as peanut out of the deal then I can live happily with some unfamiliar flab for a few months.
* I don't mean to be self-deprecating with this image. I just thought it was really cute and fitting--I feel like a little bit of a pig and this is a little bit of a pig! And it's a baby. And it looks like it's running.