I was very close with my grandfather. My mom was a teenager when she had me so she relied on her parents an awful lot for help raising my sister and me, especially after my dad died. Again, my grandfather's death is not something I haven't been anticipating, but no matter how much you try to prepare you just can't know how you will feel until it happens.
So far I just feel tired. I slept three hours last night. I was just too unsettled to sleep. I'd like to write more about what a great guy he was and stuff like that but I am just too tired and too swamped with trying to get ready for my class tomorrow in the middle of all this going on. I just need to get through tomorrow morning and I can deal with this better.